Last Sunday I had the BEST long run! I ran 8 miles and I felt great. If you haven't heard about it, click
HERE. I floated on cloud nine for the rest of the day and well into Monday. I had a solid 5 mile run on Wednesday and ended up completing 4 miles on Thursday, finishing the majority of it at the gym after landing funny on my foot during my morning attempt. All in all, not a bad week. I got all of my runs in and I felt terrific. I didn't run Friday or Saturday, both days by my own design in order to rest my legs before my 9 miles. I hydrated all day in order to prepare my body and even though we had a work event tonight, I didn't have a ton of alcohol or over eat at all.
I should feel confident. So can anyone tell me why I am so ridiculously nervous???? I;m seriously sitting in the living room, hammering away at the keyboard and trying to distract myself from the freak out that has been going on all day. I did this to myself last week too! I drove myself half insane preparing my emotions for a terrible run... and it didn't happen! No amount of logic seems to quell this fear that I will get 5 miles in and not be able to finish..... what if I don't even make it 5 miles???
Well there, I said it! My worst fear is that I won't be able to do it. Now you all know, I am human. Here's the thing: I have a choice. I can totally stay in bed tomorrow and pull the covers over my head and not even try. That's an option... a real option. Tons of people do it every day. But that's not who I am :) Somewhere along this journey to get back the ME I enjoy being, I became an optimist!!! It's just that I forget to remind myself of that every once in awhile and that PITA negative self shows up and gets me all worked up (usually on a Saturday night).
Instead of feeling inadequate and unsure of myself I am going to map out my route again and make sure I know where I am going. I am going to pull my clothes and set them up so when the alarm goes off I can change quickly and head out the door. The more steps I take to ensure that my run will be great, the closer I am to a successful run. I'm taking the guess work out of it for tomorrow and making sure that only happy thoughts are in my head.... stay tuned for my follow up recap of tomorrow's 9 miles :)
Go Sarah! It doesn't matter how it goes - if you give it a shot, you're ahead - and you know it :-D
ReplyDeleteI have had good runs, bad runs, and everything between. I have blown away my time goals, been slower than I ever imagined, ran farther than I thought I ever could, and had to walk after just a block. It will all happen to you at some point in time.
ReplyDeleteBut here is the deal, we are out there doing it. We are trying and we will succeed. So even if every day isn't perfect you're still kicking most of the populations a**. Get it Sarah!